Did you happen to catch Jane Fonda on Oprah last week? At 72 she is absolutely fabulous!! Seriously, I was inspired by every thing she said and when the hour was over, I wished she was coming back the next day.
Although the entire interview was fascinating, there was one part that really spoke to me.
Jane says she used to struggle with the idea of perfection. “It’s a toxic desire to try to be perfect,” she says. “I realized later in life that the challenge is not to be perfect. It’s to be whole.” For Jane, the entire third act of life is about “becoming whole.” This sparks an aha! moment for Oprah. “Wouldn’t it be amazing if everybody … was able to make the shift to not have your life be about being successful or getting ahead?” Oprah says. “What if our entire culture rested on, ‘How do I become more whole?'” “It would be a completely different world,” Jane says. “You can’t be trying to be perfect and be whole. You have to know what’s wrong and say: ‘It’s okay. It’s all right.'” taken from http://www.oprah.com
Isn’t that the truth?? That’s what the past year and a half has been about for me. Soon after I started therapy, my counselor asked me what I envisioned when I thought about getting better and I said I wanted to be whole and healthy and happy. I love being a wife and mother, I really do, but when that’s all I was, I wasn’t really there. I was meeting the needs of my family and doing what I thought I should be doing, what society expected, what so many of my friends were doing, but I wasn’t being me, I wasn’t bringing my whole self to the table. Don’t get me wrong, I was doing what I had always wanted to do, so I never felt cheated or that I was making any kind of sacrifice to take care of them. What happened to me was gradual. I became so focused on having the perfect family and being the perfect stay-at-home mom, that I forgot there was a whole woman buried somewhere inside…a woman who had opinions, who was smart, who was funny, who loved to learn, who was interesting and who was interested in finding meaning and purpose in this crazy life. I had become a woman who didn’t believe she had any special gifts or talents and that all she had to offer the world was wrapped up in how she raised her children.
So now everything I do is with the intention of becoming whole and healthy and happy. To me that means living a balanced life, finding ways to take care of myself…mind, body, spirit. It means truly getting to know myself, the good and the bad, and sharing the real me with the people I love. It means searching until I find my passion, trying new things even when I’m afraid, being willing to fail or get my feelings hurt for the sake of standing up for myself. It means being thoughtful and careful about things I do and decisions I make. It means I can be a better wife, mother, friend…a better person. Being perfect leaves no room for improvement, and I like to believe I’ll be getting better until the day I die.
Until later…